I live near I-25 and 144th. i would like to carpool with someone from that area to downtown denver.

Does anyone know the dates and times for the intensive in San DIego this year 2008? Thank you much!

Namaste Beautiful Illumined Beings,

I just attended the Illumination Intensive March 28-April 1, 2008!!!!!!! WOW!

I'm seeking some other recently illumined 'space-cadets' to live with.
If you have a space for me please contact me ASAP via
email: ladydjinn@hotmail.com
phone: 450-4826 / 490-4282

Thank you from my heart. :)
Peace, Love and Lotuses
L.

Just wondering if anyone in the Calgary area will be going to the Morley, AB intensive. I'm either planning on driving up from the Fraser Valley to Morley or flying into Calgary and commuting another way.

Hi,

I have a certificate to go to the Illumination Intensive and would like to know the dates and locations and any additional costs.

Thanks,
Anna

Hello everyone.
I attended the I.I. this past Oct at the Pacific Inn. How sweet it was. Just want to say a big thank you to everyone, and 'tell me who you are...' Shanti
Kev

I am going to Illumination with one other person on April 18-22
We are going to fly into San Diego and would like to know if anyone would like to carpool to save on gas & split cost?

Thank you, Heather 925-989-9076

It\'s the 2nd day after II and I\'m just blown away with the magical things happening in my life already. Some are positive, some are negative but at least now I know, no matter what I can stand my ground and admit to myself that it\'s perfectly ok, to BE WHO I AM :) Thank you, thank you, thank you :)

Just wanted to say that I'm intrigued to find out what else I don't know about myself after taking my first II. I'm looking forward to SPE this upcoming weekend in Banff and applying all this new knowledge to my life and relationships and work.

Looks like the past week of posts has disappeared (?)
I'm looking for a ride to Nakoda on Oct 12. Willing to pay for gas...

Please respond through this forum - last time I posted my email address here I immediately started getting junk email.

Hello Eric,

You posted a ride to Nakoda. How do I contact you?

Dawn
nwparadise@comcast.net

Dear Ones,
I am open to help. I am looking for a ride toand from the Nakoda Lodge on 10/12. I arrive at the Calgary airport at 1225. Thank you in advance.

To our unfoldment,

Dawn
nwparadise@comcast.net

Please contact me via email at mcmeyer@shaw.ca if you are interested in attending the Ilumination Intensive at Nakoda Lodge October 12-16th.

Hugs, Carrie

Due to a change in career and work schedule, I can no longer attend the Illumination Intensive coming up October 12-16 at Nakoda Lodge. I am looking for someone to fill this space and reimburse me for the meals and accomodation. This would be have been my second Intensive and amazing experience and opportunity for me to dive deeper into my truth, but the timing just is not right.

Anyone looking to attend next week? This would aboslutely help me out. Thanks.

In love and light,
Carrie

Hi

I am doing a 45 minute presentation of the \" friendly dyad\" at 7:45 -8:45 AM at the Beverly Hilton Hotel in Beverly Hills. Next Tuesday...

Please anyone interested in joining me to help show & tell contact me:

whitneygriggs@adelphia.net

Thanks.

I'm going to my second II, Oct 12-16, at Nakota Lodge. If anyone else going needs a ride from Calgary I have space.

If anyone who went to the recent Illumination Intensive in August 2007, who also lives in the San Francisco Bay Area, is interested in a get-together, please contact me.

Blessings,

Anand-Sara
trancedance7@yahoo.com
408-227-1613

Where do I find out all the different topics that can be used within dyads?

My husband and I are doing one about every day and we have stayed with one question each. It's been really wonderful and I see it's time to move on soon.

Thanks for your help, anyone!

Whitney
Los Angeles

Ps. If there are folks in the L. A. valley area ( or west side ) meeting please let me know. 310 903 9549 - cell.

Hey Carlie,

No words. Thank you.

Sue

What I really wanted to share with You was a gift of my experience from a deeper place. These are a few passages from my journal from the three days following the II in April...

My left hand trails in the cosmos, as if dipping my fingers into the liquid space power of the stars. Then my left hand scoops up the tangible substance playing as it travels up to my elbow. Now beneath my chair my hands hold the cosmos between them, ever widening. I thirst for my partner’s truth as I know my truth is in their eyes; as knowing theirs brings me closer to mine. The last diad ends and I am the cosmos. I hold it like a sphere of eternal galaxies and swirling stars. I am drunk on my power! Giddy. I may not have found my whole truth these five days but I have the FUCKING COSMOS man! I AM the power of all energy! I AM the Cosmos (I am smug and satisfied it's a good place to end things)...

As the evening is brought to a close the goddesses dancing around me, I am backed into the wall with my chair, utterly alone in a room full of life. I am power, I am fields of stars. There are no others, there is nothing but me and cosmos, combined. Alone I remember why I came here. Truly. For LOVE, to union. I am devastated, panicked, shattered. There is no love, not joy, no beauty...just empty charged space. As I realize my own idiocy and am filled with remorse. “what is cosmic power without love?” It is nothing. The universal kick in the ass, humbles me and my shattered ‘heart dissolves into gratitude for the lesson. So grateful to have received exactly what my arrogance asked for. Power. ALL OF IT! and nothing else. The music of Krisna Das pulls me from my chair to dance into my body, delighted in knowing this is only the beginning. Relieved that it is only a painful /terrifying lesson and I am not really alone. Knowing the intent in my heart to go forever deeper.

Then SHE sang. The muse, beauty manifest in human form. And I am broken. I and so sad of where my arrogance has lead me. Beauty is before me but not part of me, it was not what I’d asked for and it’s too late. The diad’s are all over. Beauty is before me, not part of me and I am SO FUCKING unworthy! I've cursed myself for asking for the wrong thing. I long to unite with a pain that dissolves every cell in my body. Too late, I find myself prostrate before Beauty herself. My legs crossed, my face never close enough to the floor, my arms outstretched. I weep. I comes upon me gradually and I am now I am weeping my souls’ pain into the floor. I am such a fool! “Not for me” I say, “Not for me.” It’s too late. I am hollering out my souls’ unworthiness. I am in a chair. I am still bent in half my hands out stretched. I am one with Everything. I AM Everything, I holler my Everything into the floor. “FUCK!” There are no words. Other’s comfort me but there are no others. I hear them but they are a part of my Everything. They are me speaking to myself. This is fucking hysterical! All of the questions have the same answer. HA! Arrogance returns. ‘I know something you don’t know!’ (Of course no one can ever exactly know my direct experience as I experience it, I now realize).

That night in bed, staring at the ceiling, I am reunited with my spirit guides. I remember I am a messenger and my body is FILLED with the message. Like a liquid pouring in of Godlight. “When Everything claps it’s hands the world will become enlightened at once.” I have no sweet idea what this means but I am filled with the awe of being the vessel of a message from God.

As I look at the grass in the courtyard early in the morning I am filled with the self satisfaction of being able to comprehend how many individual blades there are before me. Before me springs up the image of the entire planet covered in blades of grass...and I can comprehend how many that is! I like the Everything place, but Another had said to me earlier that I could choose how to come back to THIS planet; that with Everything, I could choose to be a=Anything. In this image of the planet covered in grass, each blade represents a possible choice of characteristics I can manifest as! And I have no sweet mother fucking clue has to how I am to pick...just one to start. Just one of infinite possibilities.

Coming back is a rude affair. I am actually terrified in THIS realm...everyone manifests as separate individuals...more frightening, some of them think they ARE separate individuals! They are like ghosts to me, only the ones choosing to manifest here consciously were slightly less scary. Eating makes me want to vomit. I realize I’m doing it all backwards! I am purposely eating the food in order to STAY in fairyland! hehehe

During the coming back diads I feel brave enough to approach Others. As I speak my truth I find Others all have deep realizations of their own of some kind. I feel the ability I have to be as Others need me to be to come closer to their own truth and am filled with joy and awe and the need to share my truth so that 'they' can know their own. I’ve chosen my first blade of grass. To always speak my Truth, in service. I realize that ‘functioning’ in this earthly realm allows me to be of greater service than hanging out in the trip of Everything-land (fun though it is!) and for that reason I finally come back into my body. Suddenly I am seeing through my own eyes as if for the first time; the texture of the pillar, the cloud painted ceiling. As if for the first time, I feel reborn into my own skin and feel the need to move and stretch my body, the feel of everything beneath my finders is a fantastic discovery!

At some point I hear about Ayahuasca and Peru; the necessity of entering the Mother’s temple with complete humility no matter who you are and what you ‘know’. It’s then that my arrogance (for a while) truly dissolves as I realize that knowing ‘Everything’ is not where it’s at, it’s a bump in the road to other things. I choose my second blade of grass as I ask for humility and give myself over to it. Immediately an image forms in my mind. I see the disco ball with ‘a thousand mirrors’ and a direct experience being one of those mirrors. I see myself holding the entire disco ball, only this one has an infinity of mirrors. This is me with my ‘knowledge’ of Everything. As humility strikes me, I realize that I am holding the infinite ball but I don’t know what was behind a single one of the mirrors! And behind each single mirror is another disco ball of the infinite aspects of that one mirror and behind each of those another and another forever and ever AMEN! In other words behind each direct experience is an infinity of infinities to explore. It would take an infinity to explore the aspects of JUST ONE of the mirrors! FUCK! That completely blows my mind (again) and again I feel my own idiocy, the ridiculousness of my own pride. I know Everything and I know Nothing. May I remember that every time I think I know something about anything!

In the closing circle everyone claps their hands to send their love out into the world.
I just about fell over.

May this serve even one of you in some profound or moving way!

AH YES! stage one moments! Enjoy.

hehehe
Carlie :-)

II April 07 in White Rock...a vacation FOR me (not of me, I thought...finally!) was the biggest universal kick in the ass I have ever gotten THANK YOU! After all what is ultimate cosmic power...without love, beauty, light, laughter...?

Beauty set me free...into Everything. Free to choose and free to move forward, sitting still. But when Everything I DO know turned into Everything I DON'T know...hehehe that's when things got really interesting. Thank you humility!

In retrospect...does the Karmic Drag of the past ever feel any lighter? I feel like I'm digging through piles of the fertile stuff as often as not. YUMmm country perfume! :-)

Hi all,

I just wanted to say that since the Illumination Intensive, there has been a continuing awareness of who I am. Really, Who I Am, and that has not gone away. There is no 'away' for 'it' to go to. There have been times when it's been very much in the background, but the fundamental realization has been there all the while, prior to all the mind and thoughts and distractedness that comes and goes.
What happened on the retreat was so beautiful and ordinary and obvious, hilariously funny, when I finally got the Joke.
Many many thanks to my brothers Satyen, Steven and Aha, and everybody who served the retreat, served me and my awakening, so beautifully, happily and with so much heart. You'll see me again, for sure.

So if you're considering doing an Intensive, yes. I could only wish for you what happened for me, what I allowed and surrendered to, on that weekend 2 months ago. It's still fresh, still growing, and wasn't just a passing thing.
Surrender, allow, and trust Reality Itself to dissolve your illusion of self.

I would like to share in what I think helps to break through during this whole process. What helped me to have a direct experience is the fact that I didnt see the other as seperate from me and that feeling kept getting more intense and more intense until I finally felt as though we were one and at that moment my illusion of who I was snapped and I became what we all are and that is divine. The feeling is one of shear bliss and comfort. The power that you feel is overwhelming to the point that it actually scared me at first. Once you settle into it the feeling permeates your entire being but the thing about it is you dont identify with your yourself while you are experincing this. Matter of fact time actually stops I know that 1 hour went by without my recollection and I wasnt on drugs nor was I asleep. It was a transcendance of identification with this reality and an awaking of the perception of the absolute reality. I only wish that I could bottle that feeling up and drink it when things seem out of whack. Its an elixer that is priceless so go for it its worth all the pain to get there and you will have to break through barriers to get there. Good luck to all of you who are on this journey.
Michael Smith
MIKJUL3529@COMCAST.NET

Who am I? That's the stupidest question I have ever been asked in my life. "Tell me who you are?!?!?!" ...the question I dealt with over and over.

I wasted a full day being the one pissed off about food and sleep and clocks. I spent another day being the one confessing my problems and hang-ups. Spending so much time bitching and denying myself real honest contact with MYSELF just about burned me out...

A simple short walk in a simple short parking lot found me bent over, hands spread out before me, doing what I can only describe as an "emotional vomit" where I actually felt my FEAR leaving my body. I had been so damn afraid of what people would think of me if this-or-that happened, I was the one holding ME back from experiencing anything f&$^ing REAL.

Fear of being judged, fear of being looked at, fear of being laughed at... all this fear gurgled up from deep within, though my stomache, throat, and out of me, spilling invisibly onto the pavement.

Walking contemplation ended, and the next dyad began.

When my partner asked "Tell me who you are" it took on a whole new meaning... every single word... Tell me WHO YOU ARE.

I had no more fear and nothing holding me back, and it f%$&ing BLEW MY MIND.

I ended up a shaking mess, eventually jokingly asking Stephen what in the F%&$ he put in my breakfast.... he just laughed and helped me walk... cant post all 4 pages of the experience here but... oh well.

That weekend was prolly the single most intense thing I've ever been through.

Thanks to all, and I cant wait to meet everybody again.

If you're ever in Kent, drop in. kevin1of1@hotmail.com

My experience at the Illumination Intensive was incredible...is there anyone interested in practicing some dyad's in Vancouver?...email me if inspired... at
madamorsel@yahoo.ca Many thanks to you all for support and presence...Sabina

Hi All,

First off thanks for the opportunity to have a place to simply check in, I appreciate it.

WOW....coming back to work has been a tad bit overwhelming as I sit with the learnings from the II on Apr 20-24 in Whiterock. My intention going in was that I would feel like I was on vacation and that I was going to Dance with my soul. I not only achieved that but I am deeply blessed for the many gentle learnings and the body experience I received of breathing deeper and deeper into who I am. What is another and tell me what life is. WOW...the freedom I've discovered for me to simply be me knowing I am nothing and I am everything is extraordinary.

Thanks to everyone there who lent their energy to that time and space. I felt safe, nurtured and absolutely celebrated on my journey. THANK YOU!!!

I just finished the illumination intensive as well, and
it was just purely amazing! I was able to have the direct
experience on the 2nd day, which of course you never see coming=) I would love to talk to anybody about the entire experience to see what they got from it. My email address
is dave.agnew1@comcast.net

I just finished the Illumination Intensive workshop in white rock, BC and had an amazing experience. I didnt have a direct experience while i was there but did have one the same day after it was over when we arrived back home. If anyone would like to talk about it and had one themselves please email me and I can share my experience with you. God bless us all because we are all one anyway so we might as well share and love the truth together.

Hello everyone (again),
I just re-read my message, and needed to add, that Nakoda Lodge is an amazing place. Being there from Mar. 30 - Apr. 3, was great. I had my hesitations like many others espically turning the control over to someone else to tell me when to eat/sleep/have a break.
However, now I'm back home shining my light and energy to all around me.
Take care, hugs to everyone.
Aime

Hello everyone,
Aime here, hope all is well with you all. I just wanted to share/comment on something Sayten said (I think) during one of the lectures. He said "I love bitches". I thought thank you, yes I am a bitch. I am:
B - beautiful
I - intelligent
T - thoughtful
C - charming (and one)
H - hell of a Woman!

The staff were incredible! Thanks so much for everything!
I am a Divine Goddess of light and energy!
Take care, hugs to you all,
Aime

Just wanted to say hi, and that I'm looking forward to my first retreat with Satyen.
I'm a little nervous, but there was such a nice "coincidence" on Sunday, that I feel a little better about it now. :-)
I am a formal student of Adi Da, and on Sunday ran into Cage and Debbie at our Asrhram in Seattle, and she said she will be serving the retreat! So I know that I'm 'supposed' to be there..
Battling my procrastination to sign up has been difficult, those pre-retreat nerves were of course underneath that, but they have somewhat dissipated now!

And thanks much to Gary Moskowitz and Debbie, too. You guys rock.

Chandira, Seattle